Don't worry everything is going to get better, everything has its own time and season”, a friend said to me. It was at a time when I was lost in thoughts I had battled with as I wondered why life was so hard for me at that point.
I am sure we have heard the statement many times, “Things will get better" but you probably wondering when? How? And why aren't you seeing any change? Because it keeps on getting worse by the day. You have tried everything to help you overcome the bad days but as days go by you have seen yourself fall down more times than you have risen, and well you think what's the point let me just give up.
Well I personally have been in the den of broken dreams with nothing to hope for, there times I gave up on my Faith in Jesus (Yes, I know it sounds blasphemous) but well it is true, because on more days than usual I saw bad days than I did see good. I heard sermons on how things are going to get better but to my surprise each day broke me apart, left unaided and in pain.
But today I want to tell you the honest truth about this, things don't get better as people put it but you can actually get better. Well I know this doesn't make sense but hold on as we go deeper in the note you shall understand what I mean.
Fear of the unknown
"Well Lloyd if things around me won't change or get better how am I going to get better"? Am sure you have that question in mind. The truth is Jesus never promised us a life that will be a bed of roses , He said they shall persecute you , judge you etc. That shows that we are going to have days when we have our face down beaten down by the challenges of this world but thought all this what He asks from us is to come out strong and still believing.
When Peter was told by Jesus that he(peter) would deny Jesus, notice Jesus didn't say he will be strong. Rather, he actually prays that after this heart-breaking moment, Peter should not feel unwanted but keep the faith.
In times when we doubt God's existence don't feel like you have committed sin that can't be forgiven, after doubting God many times I personally feel I had more answers than questions from God Himself. That's how my Relationship with Him actually grows.
You are not your past
Mostly the biggest problem I feel we face is the past, for most people we find this hard to overcome. I have had a hard time trying to overcome my past mistake as they leave me feeling helpless, what demoralizes even more is when you have anxiety; its like having a movie playing on repeat showing you all your mistakes at once.
I won't lie to you that you won't have regrets , the truth is you'll feel helpless about your past but try to use that to drive you in to doing better next time , failure isn't the end of the road it is just a sign to show you that you need to apply more efforts. I have failed so much in life that I now know which mistakes not to make in the future.
Sometimes failure will help you walk in life not only with awareness but experience , not only will you learn but you will also be victorious.
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the author
Jonathan Lloyd Nkhuwa
